Sunday, November 8, 2009

The First Time

I was thinking today about the first time someone made me do something by spanking me. It was about 10 years ago, and I was new to real-life spanking games. I'd been out with a friend and we were back at my apartment. I don't even remember what it was he wanted me to do, but whatever it was I balked. I remember him spanking me, over my jeans, ferociously. And then I remember being completely and totally in his power. I did exactly what he wanted. Through fear? Or something else?

Whatever it was, it was absolutely mind-blowing. I guess some people would feel anger or anxiety in a situation like that, but I felt incredible. I felt so free. Funny.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Jennie,

    I have read you’re posting ‘The First Time’ today with interest, and I am commenting because I think I understand the feelings you experienced after being spanked by this man...on that 'first time' occasion.

    In your posting you mention how this man made you do something by disciplining you with a spanking. The word discipline is more usually connected with the notion of doing ones duty rather than with the notion of freedom.

    When we think of discipline, whether self-imposed or imposed by another, as being directed toward doing well the things we ought to be doing. We seldom connect the idea of freedom with regulation of conduct in terms of ‘ought to’ or ‘should do’. Freedom as far as we are concerned is….. Doing what we feel like it when we like!!!!, but, If freedom was just that, if it meant doing the opposite of our duty….well freedom might be ‘achieved’ cheaply in the absence of discipline rather than the preferred way…through discipline…as you yourself experienced on that ‘First Time’ occasion.

    I am glad to have found your blog today Jennie, and hope to drop by again soon.

    Take care,